Lonely Mother's Day

waaaaa....waaaa...... i know it's kinda late to post this but... i still wanna post it anyway

uncle horse, ah mah,...all of them gone back to kch this morining... im gonna miss them and i don't want ah mah to leave me....T_T
and Mr Tan will be leaving the house this afternoon to kelantan.... he'll not be at home for 4 days!!! waaaa... im alone at home now!!!! i need some1 to accompany ... but who?? my imaginary friend? haiz... i watch the v programmes and it keeps talking about mother's day... makes me miss my mother even more nia... not to mention that im alone at home now ... ==!!!

although i didn't call mama that day (cuz she doesn'st want us to waste our money to make a call) , i really want to wish her HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY deep in my heart. well, i never wish her happy mother's day in front of her every year or give her anything special as a gift on mother's day but i really appreciate u mama.

it's a lonely night that day, im eating alone at the dining table... feels so... sad suddenly.. i burst into tears without any specific reason... maybe it's from the feeling of loneliness...

well, i got to be strong here ... i need to be independent now... u can do it SharRing....yes u can!!

* A Happy Meeting *

well, well, well. i received a fascinating message on saturday... u know how fascinating it is? well... hahaha... SeaWeed and i gonna meet on monday... and TODAY IS THE DAY!!! yipee!!!

it's been almost a month here and i haven't met any of my friends in kch...@_@ and i haven met SeaWeed (including the other girls) for almost 3 months !!! T_T now that i finally can meet SeaWeed ... and im so happy... thank you for giving me the chance to meet her today.. it's a great day for me ^^and SeaWeed, u finally got 6 days of holidays from the NS and u can come out here to KL to spent yr holidays... it's great for u too...

u haven change yet... except for yr new hair style ^^... but u think u're getting fatter and darker... well i don't think that way...
u have nice friends with u too... they're friendly... although i can't really rmb all of their names, i can still rmb some of their nicknames like cicak man, spiky or sparky ( i forgot), gun shooter and digi ( well... mostly r boys' nicknames ==!!!)

hahaha... it's yr 1st time at pyramid... so should bring u walk around in the mall lor. ^^ hmm... perhaps there's limited time so can't bring u walk around the whole mall... hope u enjoy some shopping there...

and it's the second time we played bowling together... not to mention that now we're playing at different environment with some new frens ^^ i never knew that im the highest score among 5 players... paiseh ah...=p actually after the movie i wanted to spend some more time hanging out with u but it's kinda late already so i got to go 1st... @_@

even though it's hardly for us to meet anymore... i wish u all the best ... miss ya and the rest of the girls.. ^^

Haiz... Test Back

aiyo... im so disappointed with myself. u know y? let me tell u y? this is y... i actually failed in my chemistry class quiz twice... this is so bad...
i fell that my heart got strike by sth sharp.. feel painful...
when i look back on my papers.. i actually can do the question.. bcuz of my careless mistakes again then i end up with a FAIL in my test. T_T i wanna burst out my tears...wawawa...
My class topical test also the same actually i can get about 70++% but i end up by scoring a 60% how can i do this to myself...
who can help me?!?!?!
only me can help myself??
but i've work hard... don't i work hard enough?
it's all bcuz of my stupid CARELESS mistakes again which made me end up like this!!!
I hate these careless mistake!!! :-
*press the calculator wrongly (eg. actually it's multiply BUT i press divide on the calculator!)
*didn't read the questions carefully
*too NERVOUS .. then can think properly even the simply writing of chemical and ionic equation!!) JeeZZ...
I HATE THEM ALL!!!
Tips for myself : read the questions carefully and DON"T BE NERVOUS when answering questions!!!

college life (part 2)

now i have 3 quite friends in college.. they r all local in KL.. 1 is Rachel, 1 is Nga Lai and another 1 is Eli.. all of them r different.. hmm.. how should i put this??
Rachel- even though she's a chinese but she doesn't know how to speak mandarin. except for simplae mandarin. they say these ppl r known as "banana" (based on what Nga Lai n Rachel, "banana" r people who is a christian or chinese but doesn't know how to speak mandarin) she's trying to understand n speak mandarin... so would ask those who understand mandarin to teach her a bit. It's a coincidence, that we both taking the same course, taking the same programme, taking the same subjects n taking the same semester on the 1st day we met.... ^^
Nga Lai- she's a chinese too n she speaks mandarin. well, almost like me lor... sometimes might having difficulty in speaking english when we don't know how to translate the word we want to say in english... she's a smart girl... got straight A's in SPM oh...hehe.... but she's taking different subjects from us, except from the english in this semester. She's good in drawings too... especially drawing dragon monsters..^^ and put them all on Deviant Art___dragonlegna... keep up the good work ya... ^^
Eli- a malay girl. she nice.. n she wanted to be a psychologist ^^ her english is pretty good.. maybe i should learn from her.. "F.O.C." learning...hehehe...
we usually spent time together when having break.. chating about nonsense..like school's life, school's work, family, friends, funny things ever happened n even "scary thing"...

guess what?! we can actually loan movies like VCD's from the school library. cool huh? =P i watched a funny movie with Rachel in the school on monday... a funny movie. we have no classes that day cuz teacher not feeling well n the time is still early so we went to watch movie...=)

i never knew that some1 is still going celebrate my b'day.. cuz it's over already.. yap, she's the 1 __Rachel. She bought food for me as a late b'day gift. She bought me a sausage bun... it's not an original sausage .. it's like those western sausage bun that we watch ppl from the western eat that kind of sausage bun.. it's yummy... i should take a photo of it and upload here.. the problem is that i don't have a camera here...T_T she also bake some brownies (chocolate cake that is a bit hard) .. she baking skills is pretty good.. maybe next time she can bake some other cakes and bring it to school for us to try =P btw, she made a bookmark with my name on it too. ^^ well, i still never knew a friend that i juz know for less than a month will be this good... should appreciate a friend like this. All i want to say is "Thank you for your lunch n brownies. Glad that i know u here."

college life (Part 1)

it's been quite a long time i didn't up date my blog lor...hehehe...

1st i thought college life would be easier.. who knows it's tougher than high school life =P

now, almost every week i have quizzes on chemistry... then im going to have a topic test n practical quiz (on experiments) next week!!! today i juz have my other quiz on chemistry n a english test (expository writing)... i never know that college english will be this tough... the expository writing is not what we usually done in school during the exams. U can't write yr own opinion base on the essay.
It's like this:
-they give u some article base on the essay u r going to write.
-then from the article, u need to find out the points n put them in yr essay. (it's not that easy)
-after finding the points, u still need to paraphrase them (which means, rewrite everything with yr own words but the meaning must remain the same). Paraphrasing is a hard work, even those who r good in english also having problem with it, not to mention those who r not so good in the sub... if u didn't manage to paraphrase it, n u copy from the article, the essay will be consider as plagiarism.. even worst, students will be PENALIZED or EXPELLED from the school!!! can u see how serious it is?!

-every paragraph that have been written down must put in-text citation or else will be consider as plagiarism too... so bad

-beside, students r require to write minimum of 600 words in the essay in 1 hours and 10 minutes. hello?? my malay essay in SPM i only can manage to write about 360 words in 1 hour. =(

soon i'll be doing my oral presentation in my english class by using power point. and it's individual work. i don't like the sound of "oral presentation" when teacher says that. it gives me a ind of physical pressure or sth... this presentation also includes 15% of our exam. usually i did my presentation in school with friends, now i'll be alone standing in front of students n teacher. can u imagine their eyes all move to yr direction as u're standing in front of the class??? that's scary!! and u suppose to wear formal cloths.. like those ppl wearing in offices (black shoes with heels, black long pants n a blouse with buttons in front.. jezz...) it never wear heels b4.. i think im gonna look funny when walking with heels. T_T sia soi my face liao lar...

now i don't really like english class... super don't like...

how am i going to suffer this 2 years in college? especially in the english class? WHO CAN SAVE ME????

school starts

back to the school life agin..
or should i say it'd different kind of school life now?
m entering college now already.... woooo....
but still the rest of my friends r in kch...
damn m i gonna miss them ... hiak...

school's orientation already started 2 days ago.. and it's damn long... explaning this n that about the school, every sub, computers websites usage, library usage...bla bla bla... btw, still need to sit for eng n math placement test. perhaps they want to see our eng n math standards ... so tiring that 2 days...

i took 3 semester but most ppl gonna take 2 semester.. don't worry... the fees r still the same... no need to pay for extra ^^ cuz afraid unable to cope with it so doing 3 semester lor... who ask us to be the march intake (late intake i should say). well, taking 4 sub lor n need to complete 8 units in total... planning to do 2 units for de 1st semester, 3 units for the 2nd semester n another 3 units for de 3rd semester ^^ hopefully i can do it.. yes i can!!! the lecturer says that every week we'll gonna have a subject topic test plus sometimes gonna have quizzes in class... damn tiring... "jiak lak lor" this time is not like our secondary school life le... need to work extra hard to get the require entry score in order the enter Monash U.

1st day in school is kinda...erm... perhaps weird or sth...
the chemistry teacher (Ms. Inti i think) is strict man!! scary.. don't dare to drink water in class eventhough feel thirsty =P
the english teacher (Ms. Susila)... oo... she is friendly alright... like her... always laughing when talking to students. ^^
btw, i also met some new friends there... most r local there...few from east m'sia
i thought Hui Lin is in KL's sunway college too. but didn't see her in school. did i made a mistake or what? bla bla bla....

okok... in conclusion... i need to say "GAMBATEH!" to myself.

~sry to u~

i'm so so so sry...
feel sry for a fren...
u have broke into tears...
again n again....
becuz yr friend had left u away...
away n away...
further n further...
1 by 1...
1 in miri n 1 in KL...
1 happened when u're 15 n 1 happened when u're 17...

u cried twice for friends who left u...
u're now continuing yr studies in kch...

sry to tell u at the last moment...
I can hear u r crying through the phone...
yr heart is as fragile as the glass...
broke into pieces...
I'll try to use super glue to glue the pieces back 4 u...
although it still got scar on it...
I'll try my very best to make u feel better...

promise me that u will be brave...
don't let these unhappy things hit u down to the floor...
stand up n face them...
be happy n live for a better tomorrow...
believe that yr live would be brighter n clearer...

but still...
i feel so guilty...
sry that u had cried for me...
lucky to have u as a friend...