Delight with a mixture of Pain in the Heart

hohoho...
today is the day...
an important day for this semester (well... for my life in college is quite important for me)
this is the day my result for this semester is released...

i open up my eyes...
lying on bed...
looking at the clock...it's 7.05am in the morning...
still unwilling to get up... due to my laziness...
looking at my clock again.. it's 7.15am...
ok.. now my soul is returning to my body.. hahaha...
get ready to get up ...

wosh... after taking a nice warm shower...
sth "pop" into my mind...
wait a min... today is 11 Nov...
oh ya...

rush to my com...
log in my Monash ID...
ya... it's the day to check for my result for this sem...

*loading**loading*
here it is..

Course: MONASH UNIVERSITY FOUNDATION YEAR (3650)
Year	Unit TItle	Mark	Grade
2008	English B	83	HD
2008	Biology A	85	HD
2008	Chemistry B	80	HD

yeap.. im unsatisfied with it...
leaped into the air...
yay...

at 1st my mum sounds happy for my achievements... BUT...(this is the part that i don't like)
after she knew 1 of my friends scored better than me in it... she sounds like as if i got nth...
she's like.. pouring cold water on me for my results...

i hated it... i hated the way she said to me... i hate it!! i hate it!!
y does she wants me to compete with her??
she's very clever in it.. yes, i know that.. i know she got 88 for Eng, 85 for acct, 90 for math
y wanna compare my results with her?
u know sometimes i have the feeling of unhappiness in myself when u sounds like wanting me to be the highest among my friends...
it gives me the feeling uneasiness...

ya right...
even though i told u that i don't care what others say about my results or what ppl talk about it: my college is lausy 1 or the standard is not so good so they set the questions easily for the students to score high
u know... what u hear and see from the outside is not like what im thinking in the inside
im actually sensitive of what u and others are talking or comparing my results and my college...
just that u didn't know about it...
u never know about it...