My Boredoms

it's so bored at home...
the Goat (a.k.a. Croc) didn't on9 since last night...
what's up with her??
watching “娘家” and didn't on9??
hello~~ im here waiting to talk to someone at home...
must be me, acting home sick again... damn it!!
this morning also didn't see her on9.
im so sienz here... sign...

the school juz started for a week and yet it im still bored...
at 1st i was thinking is it taking 2 units of Maths together is the wrong choice??
is it very tough for us to take both together??
argh... juz forget about it...
i already make the choice and there's no other option for me to change it anymore as it's my last semester of foundation already...
MUST KEEP IT UP!!!
but the teacher say if i've the Add Maths background of what i did in Form 5 then it wouldn't be that hard for me yet as compared to those who never done Add Maths b4 like Eli and Rachel...
aww... im still kinda worried about it in a way...
asking Nga Lai to give me her Maths exercise that she did b4...
hoping that might help me up a bit...
still thanking God that both my Math teacher are not so bad after all.
if im in Ms.Geeta's class... i'll probably be the 1st to "die" in her class
heard of some complians about Ms. Geeta doesn't really teach well and care about her students...
well, i dunno about that... but still lucky for myself...

as for my Bio B...
the teacher is still the same as my last sem's teacher... Ms. Khavitah
this time we've got another research to do... and it's Bio nor and not Eng...
so i think it will be a slight defference on the paper...

somehow im thinking of going back home for new year soon...
hoping that time could pass fast enough for that day to come...
watching and listening for the Chinese New Year's MV actually make me even more home sick...
the New Year's lyrics and the scence of family and friends gathering together makes me feel even more wanting to go home.. argh!!!



sometimes also hoping that some other ppl at home would come over to KL...
at least i have some1 to talk to or even accompany me...
even i didn't talk to them much if they really coming...
but at least when they are here i feel like im actually at home... and there's still some1 at home that i could actually see and able to talk to
even though Mr Tan is here with me... we still didn't talk much... it seems to be pointless...
i really hope that Grandma and the Goat would come over but not prefer kids...
those kids at home only gives me a headache O_o
or maybe if Grandma had fully recover and able to walk a distance by herself...
then she could come over and stay with me for maybe a month..
that would be great!!!
but still it's hard to say...

and when sometimes seeing friends on9 on msn...
clicking on them but doesn't know what to talk about...
or sometimes say only few sentence then we stop somewhere..
this only makes both side feels awkward and the atmosphere turn down to be lower than zero degree celcius...
wanting to talk to them to kill my time but we doesn't seem to have any conversation...
how could life be so difficult??

End of 2008; Welcome 2009

It's the last day of 2008 now, an hour to go b4 the new year (2009).
Well, they usually says a new year is a new start, and everything happens to start over a new life.
Sometimes, u need to agree of that; Sometimes, u feel like not agree with that.

I've been listening for radios these few weeks. The DJs kept reminding us about the year 2009.
As new year is coming,
-Have u done everything that u need do in 2008?
-Have u completed everything in 2008?
-If u haven completed it, don't push it till the next day. Cuz once things have been accumulate, u'll gonna have more work to do in 2009.
-Have u tell sth that u want to tell to yr family members, friends or partners? well, tell them fast b4 it's to late to wait till 2009.
-Have u solve things that need to be solve in 2008? Find a way to solve it ASAP, or seek for someone's advice for more help. This would reduce more problems and in yr life. Don't push it years after years until u got white hairs. =P

All these months in 2008, i've been thinking quite a lot of things and made quite a number of decisions in life.

b4 my results is release, ive been thinking of wha tcourse should i take in Uni.
and the course that i've took is better a good help for me in my future, and the most important is that i like it. ^w^
from nursing to somwehre more to science side.
ok, these are the course that have been pop in my brain b4,
~teacher
~interior design
~architecture
~nursing
~biotechnology
~food science and technology
~nutritionist
in the end, i made my choice to take food science and technology. but there's a possibility that im going to change it again somehow. hmm...

My decisions have been changed over a pass few days b4 especially in the beginning of the year 2008 after i got my SPM results.
A decision that has been made to further my studies after my SPM. From studying overseas to studying in the country.

This problem has been bothering me for quite a weeks.
With all the financial support, shelter, school, distance from hometown, Visa, language, level of academic from other places, discriminations and so on.
I've been thinking all this. This had made me quite a moody person for quite a few days.
I've been desperate and exhausted by these things.
I feel so lost suddenly. Lost somewhere in Space with no directions.

In the End, in quite a short time with a short thinking, i chose to stay in this country.
Study in Sunway University College, which i am now. b4 that, i ever made a decision to study in CND, and i've send over my school fees.
It's quite a large amount of money.
According to the terms & conditions of school fees, i thought i couldn't get back my money any more.
Thank God, they approve my letter of apology of unable to make my study there.
And the money has been returned safe and sound. ^w^
That's quite a harsh decision for me, and i've changed it in such a short mean time.

Sometimes, i juz feel like i don't have the faith to visit CND.
It's been my 3rd time that i almost going to visit that country.
But everytime it juz falls to a disappointment.
Sooner, i juz feel like giving it up.
Even though i kept comforting myself that one day i'll be going there.

then i go to Sun-U.
and i chose to take MUFY (a.k.a. Monash University Foundation Year), which is the most expensive course there. i didn't know that until i took the programme after a few days later. ==!!!
It's the mostly possibility to get approve by the Monash Uni, and Monash has the course that i might want to take. btw, Sun-U and Monash are the closest college and uni from where im going to stay.

and i met Rachel, Nga Lai and Eli in Sun-U.
These 3 are my close friends in Sun-U.
Coincidentally, we took the same number of semester, afraid that it would be too hectic for us to take 2 semester as we're the accelerate intake.
Now, i could c some of those who took 2 sem are quite busy and sometimes some of them don't even have free time for their lunch.
The Good thing is they graduate earlier than us.

then everything goes on day by day.
with assignments to do,
presentation to work out,
research to carry out,
charity to raise,
extra boring subjects to take,
result to receive.


juz like this and i've spend about 8 months in KL, never go back to my hometown for 8 months.
At home, i juz
clean the house,
wash dishes,
cook for lunch and dinner,
online surfing the net,
waiting for some relative come over to pay a little visit.

then went back to hometown in the November.
met wif some frens and helping around in the factory.
at the same time also will thought of my degree.
mama asking me to try looking for scholarships.
well, ok~ i'll try.
but won't it be too late for me to apply for scholarships as my SPM results has been released for so long already. plus some of their requirements is so HIGH!! ==!!!
and also she suggest that maybe i could try to take double degree.
hmm...
and i was thinking about that too.
would it be too pressure or what?
but at the same time, it might be useful too.
i don't mind taking double degree if i have to.
the problem is juz the finance, and afraid that i coudn't catch up everything.
well, as u know double degree is like double the work and double the fees. Everything goes double.
taking double degree is not that bad too, as the other one can be used as a backup.
still thinking about it.

and today, it's the last day of 2008, have i done whatever that i should have done in this year b4 it goes to 2009??
i've tried to make my life as happy as i could already.
and i think i've done my best to make a colourful page for this year (2008).

wait, b4 i end up everything. there's an incoming msg from Wee. typing:
最后一天了，
今年，
如果你有遗憾，请把它忘掉；
如果你有悲伤，请把它赶走；
如果你有快乐，请把它收仓；
如果计划未了，请从新策划；
明天，从新开始．

1st time Working

i don't consider that as really working...

it's juz a temporary work...

mr tan introduce us 1...and no idea what is it about...

2nd day back to KL then suddenly ask us want to work or not...

what a rush...helping him out in Monash?? 

what kind of work could it be???

i never work b4 ok...

nvm, since i've got nth to do then go for a temporary work lor...

rm5 per hour... *my eyes shines with $$$*

the work is actually about photocopying students' documents, stapleing thing, arranging  documents, writting address for documents to be sent out...

with all this work work... we actually earn rn25... woohoo...

but that rm25 i already spent it on 1 piece of blouse... i like it  ^w^

My Arrival in KL

hello KL..
im back for my study liao...
actually im not really prepared yet...
somehow doesn't have the "get ready for new semester tol start" mood...
1 month holiday seems very normal like holidays during high school...
every time when it comes to holiday sure work in the factory 1... rolling plastic rolls...
somehow i got used to it already...
somehow my muscles also become "heavy" cuz of my laziness too...
normally juz sit there and wait for the plastics rolls to be completed and make sure that it comes our fine (mean to say no problem with it)

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waiting for the time to pass...
waiting to get ready for the flight to the airport at home...
walk around at home... bla bla bla...
time seems to pass out slowly... boring~~
the flight is 12.55pm and i woke up so early n the morning.. around 7pm... sienz...
if i knew it turn out like this... i would watch the [V] Power concert on tv last night...super sienz...

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at the airport lor...
now, where is that SeaWeed?? hmm....

*searching*searching*
suddenly phone called---- from SeaWeed
SeaWeed: Im juz right behind u ... turn over

*yes! target found*
Yeap, this is the day. This is the time.
Once again, we're leaving kch to kl. Leaving together to study afar.
~checked in >done
~baggage scanned >done
now waiting for them calling to get ready to queue up
it's quite early though... for us to be there...
about half an hour b4 our boarding time...
play my PSP 1st ~hiak~
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arrival time around 2.30pm...
headed to the baggage collecting section...
1st stop, the toilet session. im damn full bladder
the worst thing is the toilet is packed wif lots of ppl there.. need to queue up so long leh...
no way im going to wait there.. forget about it.. i'll go later when there's fewer ppl inside...
the baggage collection is damn slow... what took thwm so slow out there...
after SeaWeed came out from the toilet still no ready yet ==!!!
this thing delayed our schedule leh...

finally got the luggage... then heaed to the SkyBus stop
1st time using SkyBus... wee... nth cool inside...
only that no eating and drinking...
and SeaWeed got caught drinking soft drink inside...shesh...
walilie... the distance from LCCT to KL sentral is so long leh...
feels like siiting in the cab for an hour...
even the butt feels pain and hot lor... =P
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along the way from KL sentral using KTM to Subang is fine...
everything came out good...
and we got Subang around 5pm

HERE'S THE PROBLEM BEGINS...
waited for the mini bus at the bus stop for about half an hour...
damn long plus the whether is extra hot that time...
can feel sth burning on the head already...
in the end, juz give up of waiting for the mini bus...
and use taxi back home...
rm10 leh... bopian lor...
dunno what's wrong with that mini bus...
took so long to get to Carrefour one...
is it possible it broke down half way somewhere??
well, it have been broke down quite a few times already.
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yeah, finnal home lor... hehehe...
so tired leh....
mr tan not at home....
what we're going ot eat tonight??
hmm...
milo/milk+biscuits+bread=dinner
that's what we got for a night meal.
sry for SeaWeed, got nth nice at home to eat... strave for a while... but don't faint out please!!!

after eating sth feels better already.
the cleaning the house... with all those sweeping and mopping
phew... what a sweat.. after doing the mopping and sweeping feels better now... yay to myself!!! ^O^

good that we reach home safe and sound.. and have a good sleep too ^^

Lonely X'mas

X'mas is damn lonely and boring
stay at home the whole day (except that going to the temple 拜拜 in the morning) didn't go anywhere else...
not even X'mas eve (except going to the 7th mile clinic wiht grandma early in the morning as well)

b4 that Seaweed actually asked e to go out for sports on X'mas eve.. but i turned it down
cuz it was in the morning and i need to accompany grandma to the clinic...
another reason bcuz since i've not been exercised for so long... i'll be having muscle pain if i went there

then i wait till the next day c whether they'll ask to hang out or not..
in the end who knows... nobody ask to go out... waiting for incoming sms or phone call...
but still the same.. my phone remian silent and still...
~sign~

then this afternoon, went to 爱FM website c anything interesting there ot not (well it's my 1st time there, so im kinda curious about what's inside there)

yeap, inside has all those DJs profile and their scedule and about the latest news on 爱FM
then i went to their chat box...
randomly chat with strangers...
then saw their <回家过年> MV... the MV is a bit weird and funny in a way...
the begining of the song is kinda of... erm... i consider it traditionally old <--- and that's why they call it one of the most that can express the Chinese's newyear's mood and feeling (sth like that)
ever since December they kept putting this New Year song instead of the others...and im telling the truth
i could hear this song playing on radio like about 5 times a day...
no offence hehehe...

this is the new year MV that i saw lor... ==!!

Let it Snow! Let it Snow! 4 Christmas

that' s right... Let it Snow! Let it Snow! Let my Blog snow for 24 hours 365 days!!! im not going to remove the "snow" in my blog for the rest of my blogging... hehe... (well.. i hope i can do what as i said)

i really really like it snow... even though i have no idea how does snow actually feels like or looks like... i think it's going to be nice ^w^ soft, white and gentle weee....

one day (in the future or my other century), i must experience places that snow. b4 that.... i need to eat lots of fatty stuff or where thick thick cloths or else i'll be freeze to death =P choi! choi!

how does celebrating Christmas really feels like?? i don't only mean like seeing everywhere putting up and selling X'mas tress or having X'mas sales everywhere or giving out and exchanging presents or seeing "Santa Claus" giving out free sweets to little kidz or sending X'mas chained messages or.....

i dunno... what am i trying to express here??

maybe bcuz my family or ppl around me doesn't really practice this "celebrating X'mas" thingy or having X'mas mood... so i couldn't feel the real X'mas atmosphere usually those Christians practice this celebration right? im not sure about that for what i've known. Rachel seems to have this practice... go for X'mas shopping... having X'mas tree at home well decorated

i know, i know, Christmas is a Joyous celebration. With lots of love and warmth arround. Gathering together... eating yummy things... and "Santa Claus" too... (i can describe this cuz i've seen all this on tv ==!!!)

im not trying to make Christmas terrible... im juz trying to feel the real joy and happiness of having Christmas around... i believe one that that particular feeling and mood will come to me...

but i like the decorations and ornaments and pictures and poster for X'mas... they're all nice ^w^ (now that whether i already can feel the X'mas mood or am i juz giving myself more confusions... haiz...) anyway, here there are... X'mas!!!

Not a Chance

thinking of what hair style im wanna cut later...

*thinking*thinking*thinking*

argh... when it comes to hair cut i always have no idea about it.. mostly im going to cut it shorter only haiz...
y can't i have another kind of hair style??
1st reason : u might be regret of the result of the hair style
2nd reason: if u cut it too short then u can't tie up yr hair, then yr hair will be messy when the wind blows ==!!!
3rd reason: if u dyed yr hair, when new hair grows out, u can the the contrast colour of yr hair
4th reason: if y perm (dunno spelling correct or not), it doesn't mean that i like to let my hair down always. if i tied it up, it's meaningless for me to perm my hair. It'll be a waste of money.

so this morning, the only thing i did i only cut my hair shorter.
1 of the reason i have hair fall problem is bcuz my hair is too long already. ==!!
and now that it is short, i think it shouldn't be any problem anymore.