my blurish never ends

let's see... im still in my blurish self.. blur of my course after finish my foundation in college...

i wanted to choose food science and technology... but dunno am i choosing the right thing or not... i like the course boh... (mum always say as long as u like it and it wouldn't have any trouble in finding job. don't worry about the financial support. *sign*)
yeap, it's true..
i usually like my mum's advice...
i like the way she advices me...
she open up my mind...
open my way...

i've make up my mind...
i'll take double degree...
the only thing i can do is struggle harder lor...
if i take double degree then more choices to make in my future pathway...

but at the same time...there's still some problems...
i kept thinking of the course fees...
i know double degree is not cheap and it's at Monash somemore...
Monash course fees are quite expensive ...
i know that.. so im worried my family couldn't afford it...
but then my mum say not to worry about the financial, the money, juz concentrate on my studies..
cuz my parents already planned almost everything for me & my bro's future financial...
but at the same time im afraid i can't cope up with 2 course...
this is so sienz..

aww... my brain hurts... im blur =P

A Leakage In Our Friendship

Gonna have a gathering wif the gals tonite at Isabella's ( ermm.. im not sure where it is.. juz simwhere near the day dream cafe) ... ^^
anyway, im so excited... weeeee.... long time no see gals...
*keep sms-ing each other before the meeting*c who else is going*
CLC: who is going tonite?
TPI: not sure woh... are u going? CMCgoing?
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TPI: err.... tonite i go over yr house at 7.30pm then i foillow u to Isabella k? i dunno where is it... =P
BSH: ok.. u phone me b4 u come..em..vck not going.. wee n cmc u ask them rite?
(oh ya, that day i told CMC when we met coincidentally at everrise nad wee already know about the gathering)
TPI: ya.. but i dunno whether they're going or not...
BSH: wee know the place?
(didn't reply... i think she knows the place.. she's sort of get the idea where the place is...)
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CLC: is Karen going? Maggie not going.
(oh ya, i totally forgot about Karen... sign)
TPI: i didn't ask her... *actually i dunno her contact no. * u ask her loh
(oh man, maggie and vck not going... well, that's not the worse yet.. at least 4 of us are going)
CLC: Oh, I ask loh
CLC: How are u going?
TPI: im going to BSH's house at 7.30pm then i follow her to Isabella's
CLC: U drive?
TPI: no lah... my aunt drive me there...
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PWW: are u going?
TPI :yes. how bout u?
PWW:how are u going?
PWW:when depart, i go to yr house and pick u. when go home, can u send me home?
TPI : my aunt can send me there, but i couldn't send u home cuz it's inconvinient for me... =(
PWW:nvm lah... im going... hahaha
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sms ends here

ok.. now that i know probably 4 ppl are sre going and 2 ppl are 101% not going.. ok.. still not bad

now finally at Isabella's... a relaxing place...like what BSH said : "good for friends gathering" totally agree wif that... it's nice and cozy.. maybe they should hire a fortune teller there... haha

this is the worst part... suddenly BSH told me CLC is not coimg cuz not feeling well.. (aiee?? this afternoon she sounds ok when sms-ing, now suddenly not feeling well? or she juz wants to find an excuse of not going?? forget about it)
few mins later, incoming msg... PWW:im not going anymore... now im outside. (what?!! another not going?? now 6 ppl reduce to only 2 ppl!!! what's going on??)
i thought this would be a farewell gathering for BSH b4 she left to KL and i juz came back from KL as a friendship gathering...
heartless ppl... im kinda disappointed with that *sign*

fine... nvm.. juz 2 of us.. order some drinks there and chat along.. haha.. didn't chat this long already...thinking of the thing we did in high school made me laugh into tears only lol

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when my mum know there's only 2 person attended the gathering.. she said our friendship woudn't stay long.. im kinda convinced by that.. and it sounds true too... anyway i'll juz let it be

Back Home~~

im already back home for about 3 days already...

all the things seems the same.... nth seems to change much... except for some ppl at home @grandma fall sick seriously... couldn't walk by her own and didn't eat much like b4 when she's healthy ... only able to sit up, lie on bed and sleep again.. well she eat less *at least she eats a bit*
@those little kids also fall sick.. fever.. it's like a disease on after and another.. 1 of then got cirit-birit and another 2 got fever... *i was wondering they're having fever but how come they still look so energetic, running around at home like wild animals* well it's hard to understand what children are thinking about.
@accusation arise at home ---->> $$$ (u know what i mean) well.. i don't really like to talk about it.. it's very sad and feel ashame to know it...

ever since i got home.. i haven't met papa... *sign* dunno when can i go back to no.521 and eat dinner wif him.. u know since grandma is sick now.. it's hard for me and mama to go back .. cuz need to take care of her.. if we go back whose gonna take care of her???

and i do the usual thing lor... stay in the factory.. roll the plastic rolls..

anyway, i hope grandma gonna get well soon then she can go to KL like b4 and pay a visit of me and Mr. Tan. Grandma, don't keep saying those useless words about yrself. u gonna get well soon. *pray* Oh God, give grandma the strenght to stay strong and recover from her sickness.

Kch...is waiting for me oh~~

oh ya.. time pass by kinda fast.. i've already been here (KL) for almost a year. it's actually 9 months. everything seems to be just happening yesterday if u recall back.

from the time we dunno until the time we know

from stranger to friends.

from noone to someone.

from nobody to somebody.

hehe~~ 

things are getting more and more tough awaiting for us to face them.. full of obstacles and and surprising. 

well.. after few more days i will be back in kch. friends and family over there are waiting for me. yay! (im not sure about my friends but im sure my family are  ^^) how come i make myself sounds so unconfident on my friends?? what kind of friends am i?? *sign* anyway im back!!!

i like this quote:

@Yesterday is a History

@Tomorrow is a Mysrety

@Today is a Gift ^^

@Life is like a Journey waiting for us to Discover it (i add this sentence on my own.  hehe...)

Out wif frends!!!

yeap..today!!! the day after the exam!!! and the day im going out wif frends...

im so happy.. it's the 1st day im coming out if frends in KL.. but only to pyramid of course...the nearest place..

1st stop-watch movie of course (as what we've planned on msn the night before.. hehehe) as we're considered as the early birds we got rm8 per ticket without using the student card.. yay! (normal price would be rm11 lah)  Madagascar 2: Escape to Africa, here we come!!! it's so hilarious movie! A good movie to release stress after all the exam. well recommended.. *thumbs up x10*  "i like to move it move it! she like to move it move it! we like to move it move it!" *singing out of tune*  hehe...

                                             

2nd stop-waffle time!!! went to "waffle world" and ate chocolate waffle wif ice-cream on top. yummmm.... *tongue ticking out and saliva keep drilling non-stop* it so full for one piece of waffle...even Dragonfly couldn't finish hers.. but still nice.. worth it

                              

3rd stop-there's no stop here.. we juz wandering around in the shopping mall ... talkiong here nad there and took some pictures.. then met Kelly (from chem class) in the toilet.. asking her to take pic of all of us.. then there's weirdo appear.. when Kelly is taking of us (Nga Lai, Rachel, Eli and me) a guy stood behing Kelly and looking at the pic she took for us... he looks perverted is a way... i feel kinda wanna hit him when he does that... we don't even know him!!! and Kelly is unaware that the perverted guy is watching us taking pictures... Argh!!!

                                   

                                   

                                   

                                   

                                   

                                   

4th stop-everyone goes home already. and i still need to go to Jusco to buy some groceries then when i come back then i don't have to rush for all those things... ^^

well... it's kinda of an interesting day .. i guess... hmm...  

and Uncle K.H and Aunt S.C got home just few mins after i reach home..^^ it's a right timing anyway  hahaha  *praising myself* *like this also wanna praise... what an idiotic move* ==!!!

p/s.. i sure raely come to write down my blog here.. it's kinda busy last few months.. anyway i'll still try my best to drop in this that happened around me even though it's already few days or months over. Gambarimasu!!! (meaning  i will do my best!!!) 

yay!!!

yay!! yay!! yay!!

finally finished my exam yesterday... 

im happy now...

im relieve now...

i fell sth heavy being lifted high from me now...

finally the bio last paper is over... i've been waiting for this day 3 weeks already... waiting for 1 paper each week is so... (how should i put this???) desperate?? boring?? lazy?? anxious?? nervous??  aww... it's all mix of feeling!!!!  T_T

b4 the paper is full of emotions that dunno how to express.. dunno whether to feel nervous or happy for the last paper... 

1st, im nervous bcuz im going for the have the exam that day.. and i feel unprepared even though i've studied almost everything.  (well perhaps not everything but most of the major topics)

2nd, im happy bcuz it's finally the last paper... i've been waiting for this day so long!!! and the day has finally come towards me..c getting closer and closer @_@  (i can see the finish line in front of me, yay!!!)

good thing the bio paper wasn't that difficult it's juz ok!! i won't say it's easy. better not to be too confident in myself. most of the past year questions teacher gave us are quite tough in a way.. 

im happy not only bcuz it's the final paper.. another reason is next day im going out wif frens to pyramid and Uncle K.H and Aunt S.C are coming over too.. im super XDDD    *flying in the air*

after i got home.. of course that i threw everything aside and quickly clean up the house (unless when they came tomorrow they won't say the house is full of mess =P) after that i can continue watching my anime... muahahaha... (im sort of addicted to it... Shugo Chara here i come!!!)

Month of Trial Test

It's super tiring to say that this month gonna gave lots of topic test to cover...

not only Topic Test.. some of us still need to sit for the trial exam to prepare us for the Final Exam... this already made most of us suffer from stress and tiredness...

juz finished my Chem last topic test today... what a relieve... can rest a while
it's not only one topic test that i've taken for this week... i've already sit for 4 test continuously... and it's tiring...

it feels like u haven't finish studying then need to sit for the exam... SCARY MAN!!!
especially when sitting for the Moral Exam... every1 is like panicking that day.. cuz it's hard to understand Moral...
don't understand the terms...
don't understand the words...
don't understand the explanation...
(that's the worst thing ever)

WHAt's DEONTOLGY THEORY
WHAT's TELEOLOGY THEORY
WHAT's NORMATIVE VALUE
WHAT's RELATIVE VALUE
and many more which cannot be listed here...

this means to say from what we have learnt and memorized in secondary school are all useless already... i heard my fren's mum say "Moral Studies is a waste of time and money because u only learn it but u don't apply it in yr life." i kinda agree wif that though. hehe.

so basically the paper for Moral Studies is quite hard for us loh... need to do get maybe 10% in order to pass cuz we already have at least 40 marks from our project work. =) Essay question, which i answered in a stupid and maybe illogical and does not contain any moral values that i learnt is...WHAT IS A MORAL PERSON IN 350 WORDS?
crazy leh... how to explain that in 350 words??

some ppl are "super genius" or what" they finished the paper in 30mins then leave the exam hall already.. maybe they give up already??? looking then leaving one by one makes me even more panic.. my rate of heart beat increases as well as my pulse... in the end only left 4 of us (all are my frens) sitting in the hall until the one last sec...

after suffering stress from Moral Studies then is my Bio Topic Test.. acctually it's the last topic test for Bio also... well.. in this Bio.. the Chapter that im not confident is obviously about the human immune system... it's hard for me to understand... i dunno y?? when i do the pass year questions that teacher gave us.. im blur already... so im not confidence in this topic test... It gives me a weird feeling that im won't be able to score well like how i did b4.... *probably less then 70%, nooo... impossible.. i can do better than that!!... i guess~~*

after the Bio is my Chem topic test lor.. which is today... Chem is quite ok lah... *i think i can do well in it*

But b4 all these test (Moral, Bio n Chem) is my Eng Trial... and it's an essay question which need to answer literature questions... well... it's quite difficult in terns of analysing movie, novel and short stories... there no reference for them.. so we need to base on our knowledge... interpreting all the characters in it.. how they interacting with each other and the environment... how they affet each other... the theme are mostly base on Family and Friendship.

To summarize up everything... having exam in one row is very tiring... no only tiring but SUPER tiring. now need to sit for another Trial Exam for Chem which is next wed.. good luck for mua~~